Doubt again??!!

Last Saturday and Sunday (25^th & 26^th October) – attended the 1^st Asia Suzuki Teachers Conference.

Since, boss has announced that the school will close for that 2 days and already send out letters for parents and students plus it’s free “entrance” for that conference (or training) so as I think “why not” I just attend it, no harm anyway.

I wasn’t really agreed with the Suzuki method before this as what I heard about this method is all about learning by ear, neglected the note reading at first stage, this is not a good way (in my opinion). However, after I joined the training on violin for this Suzuki method and once again I knew that I was slightly misunderstood about it as even though this method is learning by ear but they involved other activities in the learning process and they are really emphasize on the posture and technical skills. This really attracts me as I can once again improve my violin skills especially in teaching.

Once again, I was doubt whether should I stay on in this company or just go on with my initial plan to resign and find other job in other place. What make me doubt is because after I joined this conference I found out that this method is quite good and applicable especially in teaching violin as well as I am always wanted to improve my violin and this might be a good opportunity for me to learn more.

In addition, they will start to have the training courses starting next year to train teachers in this Suzuki method in order to get the certificate and if really got the certificate we can easily find other job overseas as many countries use this method in music teaching. Since, this is the market in music and to live in this realistic world, I need to follow what is on for this field. I am still considering about this matter as I really cannot of my own thought and feeling of don’t want to work in this stupid company and still think that by my own ability I can find much better job. Well, I am now need to humble down more but I still need to think of it carefully as I don’t want to regret with all my decision one day.

However, another thing comes into my mind is..this is just a plan from my company (about the training courses that will come next year) which i have been working under this company for so long and i have seen lots of things that they organized were actually end up a failure only. So, I am doubt about it also, I scared, yes if now i really got attract by it and because of that i stay on then in the end I din't get any benefit from the "waiting" then I will totally "knock my head on the wall" at that time.

So, I prayed to God, I said, if the company will offer me better salary up to my satisfaction and if I think it’s worth to stay then I’ll stay on plus the benefit of going for the Suzuki training. If not, then I’ll still go. So, now just wait and see what’s the result and I am always believe that God will speak to me through lots of situations.

I would like to say sorry to lots of friends and my family as I actually already decided to resign end of the year (which I had confidently "announced" it) but now I am doubt and don’t know whether should I resign or stay on. I could said that I have to be selfish this time, for my own benefits and have to see better future in many ways as well. So, friends, I hope you all also pray for me and hope that no matter what decision I will do, don’t feel like I am just the type of person BIG TALK only. I really don’t mean to “tell lies” and to be honest I actually has ready my resignation letter (print out already). Haiz, I really hate to make decision, this is my weakness also..I only can rely on God now.

Hopefully just temporary!!

When i got back K.K on monday afternoon
I realized that their is no internet connection at home..and i think is just for 1 or 2 days as it happened before. However, day by day passed and until today still no connection. Weird.

I wish is just temporary "out of service" is not they already cut the connection as im actually using the wireless connection which i m not sure it's belong to the apartment or other people's connection but it's normally on 24 hours one..so all the times i just treat it as the wi-fi connection of my apartment somemore it's not a personal name (for that connection) and i only use for chating and normal web browsing only.

Anyway, hopefully it's just temporary or else i only can come to my office to online now (that also if i got longer break in between teaching hours) and i am actually very lazy to carry my laptop here n there...haha...=p

Journey Back to K.K.

Yesterday, Monday (20 October)
It was a last minute decision that need to come back K.K on monday morning because on sunday when dad asked the uncle when will he came down KK he said most probably on tuesday but who knows on sunday night around 10pm dad called to confirm he said he will come down K.K on monday early morning 6.30am but he's using lorry to come down and dad asked me.."ok or not"..i agreed rather than i take boat lo..coz need to transit and wait 3 hrs..so, that time i quickly packed my bag (but actually nothing much to pack) haha...
Monday, early morning 6am gonna wake up and be ready...waiting n waiting in the end around 7.20am then his son to come to pick me up to his house as he is using Lorry to come down K.K. The uncle asked me whether anyone will pick me up in K.K here where he needs to take his "stocks" (vegetables) coz he said the time too late already as we depart and he wont manage to send me to my house here. So, i quickly sms my friend here and asked whether can pick me up from there and Thanx God that my friend said "Ok, Can".

Then all the way down, he needed to stop at lawas sugarbun to drop some stocks and then to sipitang to take some watermelon (as his ordered) then he kept rushing down to K.K..the reason he so rush because he is using the Lori to come down and he needed to get back custom at limbang there before 6pm (very troublesome lor). Thanx God, we arrived around 12.30pm and i waited for my friend outside "kedai kopi" until around 1pm then he came..haha...finally i can get home...thanx God for the journey and thought it's really tired.

When my friend pick me up, he told me that there is an event on that night..National Symphony Orchestra at where where..got free tickets from my boss and i said no wonder on saturday i received a call from my company but i dint hear the call.

Back home and have little lunch then straighaway i laid down on my couch to sleep liaw..really tired..until around 5pm then i got up then rest for a while and getting ready to the concert as my friend said will come to pick me around 6.45pm. Then we reached the concert place around 7.20pm and we thought is going to start soon who knows waited n waited..untill 8.30pm then it started...haiz..then around 10.40pm then the concert end. To be honest, NSO doesnt give me a good impression..out of my expectation.

Thanx God for the day as well as leading my safe journey back to K.K and a great experience of 5 hours journey on a Lorry...wakaka..=p

Attending friends wedding....

Today..18th October 2008...
A big day for this couples (Yek Chong Lee and Wong Chung King) to officially announced as husband and wife after 5 years and 8 months...haha..Their Wedding!!!

Knowing them since i was young, both the bride and the groom..being classmate, growing up together in church and serving together in church and we really had lots of great memories especially during youth times...and today, glad that they are moving into another step of life.
Attending their wedding ceremony in the morning and the wedding dinner at night. From their smile can see that they are really happy and thankful for today thought they look tired also because of busy preparing for their wedding lately.

Well, Congratulations and Happy Wedding for Chong Lee and Chung King
Wish both of them have a nice honeymoon trip...
Happy Forever and really waiting for their good news next...haha...;p

"Floating" back home...

This evening..4.35pm..
Finally i reached limbang (my hometown)..but i have been "floating" on the sea into river for 5 hours (3+2) altogether make me really really tired and dizzy!!!
My trip begins...
Woke up early this morning at 5.30am, which i need 3 alarms to wake me up..haha coz i asked my friend to pick me up at 6.30am to get down to K.K (scare traffic jam if go out later than that). As i am getting ready, around 6am, my friend text me that he is coming..I was like.."what?? so early" and he said because he needs to go airport 1st to get something from his friend. Okie..then i quickly getting ready.
Reached jesselton point (where i depart to labuan) around 6.45am and long queue at the ticket counter already. After bought my ticket, I went to buy my breakfast and enjoyed it until around 7.25am then i got to the "check-in" point then got up the boat.
Departed on time at 8am and this is first time i used express (or speed boat..don't know what it actually called..seem like many names for it) back home but not straighaway, need to transit at labuan 1st. 3 hours journey from KK to labuan, i really felt dizzy (boat quite shaky) as last nite i only sleep 4 hours..trying to sleep on the boat but cant sleep well somemore i bought the 1st class seat ler (well, just rm5 different from economy). Another thing make me suffer also..i feel like going to toilet but i lazy to get up coz i scare later i walk i'll felt even worst coz already abit dizzy. So, i stand until i got on to labuan terminal.

<-- my tired face!!

Arrived labuan at 11am and i straighaway find the ticket counter again (1st time there..need to search) and bought my ticket to limbang. And i need to wait there for about 3 hours coz it depart at 2.30pm (but "boarding" at 2pm). I went up and see got cafe, i took my lunch there. While having lunch, i saw the cybercafe next to the cafe where i have my lunch..so, keep thinking wana just get in to online while waiting for my time. In the end, i went in also haha, just chating and check mails. Around 1.40pm then i got out from the cybercafe and wait for time to boarding.
The moment i got out from the terminal and saw the express/boat to limbang..walau er, so small i cannot imagine how am i going to "survive" for 2 hours in there. However, thanks God that i managed to sleep for a while as i listened to my music (mayb too tired already) and i drink lots of 100plus to avoid getting headache as i got a sense that i'll get headache already because of not enough sleep and hot weather. Then, when i got up is only 3.30pm..what..another hour to go..so i took out my phone and play game...haha....;p
Then, finally reached limbang...what a relief and i called my mom to ask whether she's ready to go home..then she asked me to walk to my uncle's shop to wait for her..aiyoh, walk again..lucky is not far as i want to go toilet again..haha..drink too much....so i quickly walk to my uncle shop n rush in the toilet...wakakaka...
I really thank God for my journey today because when i saw my mom then she said sometimes the boat from labuan to limbang is not operating (because of the wave too big). I was a bit shocked as luckily today the weather is quite good if no..i need to get back to KK again..really Thanx God for listening to my prayer as everything went smoothly.
I also thank God for this wonderful experience that i had eventhough a bit "suffering" but seem exciting as if going for "adventure" (find all the way out on your own)..haha..;p

Great Day!!

Today..Monday..my off day...

An enjoyable day for me as this afternoon...
Out with a friend (Pei Hua) which has been long time we dint catch up with each other....what we did......
1) having lunch together..we had KFC..haha..and we talked and shared alot of things...
2) shopping....long time dint enjoy shopping already (before and after movie)
3) movie..yay, finally watched the "Mamma Mia"..felt satisfied as it is really an interesting movie and enjoyed the songs in this movie (all nice oldish songs) as the actor/actress voice are so beautiful + abit comedy (very funny). However, the whole environment has been spoilt by those girls at the back as they are so noisy singing at the back..what an annoying. Anyway, i really feel glad that finally i managed to watch this movie in cinema..yes, yes, yes...Thanx God and thank you pei hua for your accompany and glad that u enjoyed it as well.

Today i got 3 friends and one of my cousin's birthday..hmm, i think most numbers in my list..
Is today a good date?? haha...;p
Happy Birthday to Elise Jong, Xiu Yue, Jih Kai and Esther Toh (my cousin)!!
and guess what..they are all same age except Jih Kai (a year younger)...
Wish you all have a wonderful day and God Bless!!

Disappointed..

Time flies...it's sunday again...

Supposingly, I am quite excited for today because tonight me and my colleagues are going for movie and i am waiting to watch this movie.."Mama Mia" for few weeks already..finally yesterday evening my colleague said we go for it tonight (oh, how wonderful..;p). However, this morning after church, at first i received the first message from my colleague ask where should we go for movie..who knows the next moment she message me back and said sorry that she is not feeling well, so go for movie next time la...that time i was really really DISAPPOINTED as this movie already released so longand if still don't go for it will not on show in cinema anymore. All my excitement just gone at that moment..*sob*sob*.."yi chang huan xi yi chang kong" (in mandarin means all happiness turn into emptiness) ~>.<~

Well, in my mind, hmm..nevermind, I am sure still got chance as tomorrow (monday) i already "dated"another friend out for shopping, so maybe we could go for movie as well.

"Mama Mia"..please wait for me..I am coming soon...wakakaka =p
* Tracy..I miss you very much as everytime if i saw got new movie on show (and seem interesting)..sure, I will think of u..haha..dont misunderstand..It means that i really enjoy time watching movie in cinema with you as we always have the same "taste" on movie...hehe..^_^

Decision..

Today..arghhh...saturday again..
Even though today i can wake up half an hour later than previous saturday because my 9.30am student has stopped so i only start to teach at 10am..thanx God i can sleep till 8.30am but extra half an hour still hard to get up...sighhhhhhhhhh

Reached my school 5-10mins before 10am and my student also reached already but she still having her breakfast in her car so i just wait for her and as i was waiting..this stupid consultant came and asked me to sit down and talked to me..he was telling me that on 25th and 26th this month there is a conference about the suzuki method (one of the method in music teaching). He said for that 2 days the school will be closed and need to postponed all the students' lesson or do replacement for them. He talked alot but i am just kind of ignoring him as i was not responsive to him (kind of ignored him..haha). Well, i am not interested at that actually and as i went back to my room and i looked at the calendar..OMG, 25th and 26th are saturday and sunday..gosh, want me to do replacement..saturday i am really packed..how am i going to replace if i really attend conference/seminar.
In the afternoon, boss also talked to me about that and i said is on saturday and sunday..how to replace those students plus next week I am on leave again..so hard i have to arrange those students' replacement ahhhhh...Boss said, is ok..the school will sent out letters for parents..i was like how u give my students those letters as next week I am not in. Well, i dont care also, let them do the job, i just informed my students that next week I am outstation so no class for next week. As for the following week, let the admin people deal with the parents. I dont want to worry about anything.
Another thing that boss asked me again today..She asked me quickly hand in to them the proposal that she asked for, but actually i dont want what's the reason i need to give them proposal and i have no idea what proposal i need to write. She said be quick and dont wait again, later 1 month, 2 months again so that can discuss about it and also at the same time talk about the increment. I was like, "hmm" i already thought of resign already what for i still want to hand in proposal to you (boss). She still dont get what i actually hint her all the while? Or she just pretend not to know.

Should i just straighaway tell her that i want to resign end of the year or how? Really hard to decide because i dont want to let her know my decision so early and still thinking of a better reasons to quit.

Once again, i only can lift up this matter to God and let Him show me the best decisiont to go for....

Meaningless....

Cannot describe my feeling lately...
Meaningless? Bored? Tired? Lazy? or what??? Doubt..........
I don't want to get back the bad feeling of thinking a lot that make me emotionally 'breakdown'...
Oh, Please..NO!!!!

I started to feel bored of my work and feel really lazy to teach anymore as this few weeks, a lot of students dint turn up for lessons and i got too long hours of breaks in between that make me feel really tired of waiting..because dont know what can i do....really bad arrangement of schedule.
Today, i got 1 student at 1.20pm-2.20pm then i have a long breaks until 4.20pm..that 2 hours really hard to pass..i watched my drama but dont seem im into it (i brought my laptop to office) and today my boss dint on the internet so, i cant online :(
I finished work at 6pm but of all i only teach 3 students today and on the way home, caught in traffic jam that makes me really sleepy almost close my eyes (actually i did) but thanx God that i can still drive safely home.

I think i really need a long holiday so that i can really refresh my mind and re-adjusting my life.
However, God is always caring of me..I am glad that next week i can go home (limbang) as the main purpose is actually to attend a friend's (consider cousin as well) wedding. Both of them are good friends of me(churchmates)..knowing since we were young and growing up together. Ops, now then i realize i need to practice the wedding songs..i almost forgot my "job"..haha..yeah, i need to play for their wedding ceremony (as pianist)..it's my great pleasure to do so, hopefully i wont mess up..wakakaka..;p
Looking forward to go back this time as i can catch up with lots of friends as well as lots of us actually working or studying at different places...this is a great opportunity that we can actually meet because mostly will be back to attend the wedding.

Well, hopefully after this short "holidays", i will totally fresh up and come back here and have better working life.

Another off day!!!

Wednesday..
Mom wake me up around 6.30am as mom and dad is going back limbang this morning and they wake me up coz they need to get their luggage from my car as last night they left it in my car plus i need to get my phone charger from them as well.
After that, i got back and sleep again but was hardly sleep because i was sleeping in the other room and it was so noisy outside (usually i sleep in master room which wont hear those noises). However, when i nearly get into nice sleep, my auntie called...what the....and i was answering her with no energy and she asked me..am I still dreaming..i said.."yes" and she actually was asking about my parents that when will they back..and i told her that they already on the way back limbang at that time..and she was shouting on the phone that make me really awake..wakakak...i asked her to call mom herself..haha..aiyoh...a big shocked..wakakaka..Then, she asked me to continue dreaming..
After that, i went back to sleep again..and this time i need to set alarm so that i wont oversleep eventhough today i dont need to work (as usual..wednesday is not my off day but i got no student at all..so another rest day for me lo) but i plan to go car wash today...i must wash today if no i really dont have other time already.
Around 1.30pm, my colleague chat with me on MSN and said she dont have student today as well so we agreed to go shopping together. Around 2pm i went out to go car wash and that time started to rain again..aiyah, why so bad luck..2 days ago is like that..but i dont care liaw..i just go.
When i reached car wash shop and that worker told me.."now raining oh..u (me) want to wash?" i said nevermind la..just wash.. thanx God after done washing the rain stop already..haha.. Great!!!!
Then i headed to 1 borneo to meet my colleague and we shop..and had some tea time together as well. After that, i meet another friend for dinner at city mall + chit chating..haha, thanx Dorcas for listening to my long long story..haha..;p

Waiting!!

Tuesday...
Wake up and look at the clock..WHAT?? It's 11.30am already...long time i dint have long hours of sleeping...hehe..;p
Today, i tot i can go car wash before i go work as the weather is good...
who knows around 2 something when i getting ready to go out...suddenly very cloudy and RAIN.. What...arghh, cant go car wash again..sigh..

Around 3.30pm then i went to post office to pay my electric bill, lucky i went out early as i need to work at 4.30pm because there are long queue at the post office...waited for about half an hour to pay a bill...:(

However, today's traffic is not too bad as i still managed to reach my company at 4.15pm and my student was there already so i started her lesson early..after an hour lesson with her, i need to wait till 7pm for the next student so i just online and chating &etc..
At 7pm, i went out from my room to see whether my student is there or not..hei, not yet come.. because 2 days ago (on sunday) my colleague told me that this student is confirm to come today..so i wait and wait..still dint turn up..so i assumed he's not coming anymore because this student already absent for so many lessons. So, i asked the clerk to call the last student (lesson at 7.40pm) to ask whether he's coming or not because this student always make me wait for nothing (dint turn up) or else he's always late...then finally the clerk can reach him and he said he's not coming..Sigh, if i knew they are not coming early on at 5.30pm i already can go home..make me waited for so long and was so tired and sleepy there...haizzzz....

Lots of time my working time is all about waiting students..wait n wait n wait..make me really tired of it...and after long hour of waiting and just found out student is not coming, i will be very angry but what to do..they are the "King or Queen"...Tired!!

P/s: haha..when this entry is in the process..dad called around 11.05pm that they already arrived KK airport and already got their luggage ready..so, i need to rush to the airport liaw....then back home and chit chat with them view the pictures they are taken in korea and Beijing but not much becoz dad said the camera got some problems...too bad...
Anyway, glad that dad and mom have a nice trips this time..mom bought lots of presents for me.. yay..;p

Life..how could it be better?!

Today is my off day again...
As usual, i did my house cleaning during my off day.
Afternoon, i actually planned to go car wash and after that go shopping..who knows, all my plans gonna be canceled because of the heavy rain so i ended up.."growing mushroom" at home for another day- sitting in front of my laptop, online, watching astro etc...Bored... ;p

Well, what's life?? this question always pop out from my mind.
I found out that lately my life is full of complains...i am really tired of this kind of life.
Besides that, boring life is another one that i encounter as these days, besides work, i just stay at home all the times and facing my laptop and tv.
I am really sick of this kind of life
How can it better? Only God knows..and only Him can show me how to get out from this circles of life in order to live a better life.
Is it time for me to change to another environment?

Come to this question..changing environment..is it really the time for me to find a new job??
Where should I go? How to search for a better working environment?
Or should I change into another field? As i always wanting to back to australia to study again But not music...haha..is not because i dont like music anymore is because i want to widen my life circles.

I planned alot but I am not sure which one is the right one to choose.
All I can do is..praying hard and asking for God's wisdom to know which is really the right one.

Life..Life..Life...I am still searching for a better life...
Anyway, Thanx God for all the life experiences that made me grown up.

Thanx God for all the friends (all my "brothers" and "sisters") that i get to know and thanx everyone for all your support, encouragement, suggestions, comfort and caring towards me as a "little girl"..haha ;p I am getting better now..

Wish all my friends all the best especially : -
for those still study: rushing for assignments and preparing for exams...
and for those still searching for jobs..
And those who are working: everything going smoothly for you...
Good Luck and God Bless!!

Cheers ^_^

Tiring day!!

Saturday Again..
Woke up as usual saturday morning but last night i dint get to sleep well..so, i nearly couldnt get up again but still forced myself to wake up.
When i reached my school somemore i was there earlier as i thought of giving that student extra time for replacement who knows when i get in my room, eii..how come the student not there because she usually followed her sister to her lesson (her sister also one of the teacher of my school-my colleague). Then, i started to feel strange already and i went out to counter and asked the clerk and she was a bit shocked that i dint know that the student actually hand in termination letter that she will stop her lesson from this month onwards and she showed me the letter. At that moment i was like..hei, how come i dunno anything, the student dint tell me neither anyone of the school inform me anything as well. Then i went to ask my colleague and she said the letter already handed in 1 month ago lor. Sigh, if i knew about it i could have extra half an hour to sleep because i was really sleepy and tired.
While waiting for the next student on 10am, the clerk talked to me and one thing that she told me that i was shocked that last sunday my boss actually "bombing" her that she made the documents in the computer lost (all boss document). She told me that she was shocked when boss "bomb" her in fact she dint even do anything and she said she was so bad luck that she actually just used that computer for a moment as she wanted to on a CD but ended up doesnt work because that computer CD-rom already not working, and after that she dint use it anymore and i was shocked that she said boss thought that she wanted to sabotage the company and made those documents lost. The clerk felt so sad about that case as she dint do anything and boss dint find out clearly (who knows is the computer itself got something wrong ler) and just simply blame other people. I am pity with that clerk as she was so hardworking there..work so much there. Meanwhile, I also shared about the meeting that happened on the same sunday and i was thinking also i was telling the clerk that may be because boss was not happy and bad mood because of the argument with me in the meeting and happen that her documents in the computer got lost..so, she just simply find someone else to "release" it and poor clerk..she got the "bomb"...sigh...
Today, not many of my students come for lesson..all the muslim students dint turn up as they still celebrating their Hari Raya. Overall, i only teach 6 students today as usually i got about 12 students on saturday..haha..Thanx God that not so "tense" for me today as im really tired and sleepy..dunno why...haha
Today's weather is very strange..it was sunny in the morning when i got out to work and suddenly rain for just a moment (not even 5 mins i think), so abit cooling. Then, it become hot again at the noon time but later in the afternoon, rain heavily again...huh...strange!!

It's too late to please me!!

Today, 3rd October...
Oh..holidays is over and my nightmare is coming again...why said so?? haha, because have to face those students again..sigh...
Boss called me before i get to work and talk so nice to me..wah, what a nice "weather" today. She asked me out for tea this afternoon as i got a long break in between my teaching time as many of my students called up and said cannot make it for today's lesson...alright, i agreed because i also wan to hear what she will said.
Then as usual, on friday i start on 1.20pm and only teach tat 1 student then got break till next student at 4.20pm. And that's the time boss asked me out.
Well, I am shocked that she actually apologize to me..hmm, of course im not that cruel, i accepted the apology and forgive them eventhough it sounds a bit fake that boss just trying to please me. Conversations that we had were all about teaching students, their attitude and boss still brought out the issues that a lot of complains from parents towards me, this time i calm down alot, i just explained about the situation and he/she learning attitude. In front of me, she just said, of course she always protect teacher one..bla bla bla (well, i know this is not true, she always please parents then protecting teachers lor) but i dint argue with her anything la because i told myself just dont need to argue so much as long as i clarified myself of all the situations that happen especially the case that why some students get scolded so badly. And I was so glad that she agreed to change one of student that i really cannot teach anymore and i really fed up with him already but still need to wait for boss to arrange another teacher as his class is on saturday evening..peak hour. Just hope she not said said only but she really do it.
Besides that, she's trying to tell me how to make the lesson more interesting..bla bla bla but i was like all that i thought of it before eg, group lesson..but problem is i know that all the students here sure got 1 common reason, they are busy this and that, so it's really hard to find a time that actually suit all those students to come for group lesson not to say just once a month. Well, if they can obviously it save my time. Boss said just tell her and she will arrange and let the parents know..i was like...OK!!!
Then boss asked me how can they improved in their system and management..well, that's too much to say so i dint mention much because i think that's your business, you have to really work out why is your system got so much problems.
Thanx God that i can peacefully talked with boss this afternoon and she dint mention anything that she'll consider about my pay etc. Boss thought that by that peaceful talk that i'll just forget everything and can work with her for long period..well, i already make up my mind to quit so nothing will change my mind, wont because of her nice words then i will consider to continue with them as not to quit eventhough im easily get "touch". However, i'll still observe how is everything going on, if they dont treat me badly as not much "gossips" behind me then maybe i'll consider to continue until i really got my new job or else i'll just resign at the time as i thought before.
After 4 days holidays and i become so lazy already, today eventhough only teach 3 students but i finished work at 7pm and i felt really tired..may be too much rest so i become lazy already..haha..anyway, thanx God for another peaceful day!!

What's on!!

It seem to be that the month of september was so long..why would i feel like that??
Thinking backward, really lots of things happened that actually turn my whole life seems meaningless though sometimes i did had lots of fun with friends around but those happiness can last how long??What's really a meaningful life then? always when i prayed to God asking for his wisdom and guidance and lots of time i actually get to know that i need to slow down my pace and need to humble myself more than i am now..may be i should not put too high expectations on everything and everyone. Well, i just need to be passion especially living in this realistic world and just obey what God actually arranged for me..follow His path eventhough it's hard but that's life experience that need to be gone through in order to grow up more.
Time flies, finally come to the month of october 2008.
1st october..is public holiday (Hari Raya)
Woke up late in the morning as finally i got better sleeping at night, i think that's because i felt the peace that God has given to me and asking me not to worry so much as everything will be fine in His hand. Thanks God.
Well, as planned around 4pm, i met my friend for swimming. Before swimming, some of them wanted to play squash and this is considered my 1st time to actually watch how squash to be played (live) haha..normally i only watched on tv and no idea how it actually "work"..haha..now i "experienced" it..though i dont play it..haha..then, they continued their squash..we went for swimming..wow, so long dint swim already and i felt a bit scared to swim + i also worried i'll get muscle pain after too much swim because too long dint swim +exercise (haha..lazy gal..dint do exercise) so just like others playing at the swimming pool and swim bit by bit as i feel to lar. And i really found out that those friends, few of them actually have phobia of it because they bad experience as they got drown in the water before but they still want to find back the courage to get rid of the phobia, i really admired their strong desire on it because lots of people when they got phobia of something they will totally wont go for it anymore.
After around an hour of swimming, we felt tired already so we got up from the swimming pool, walau eh, once got up..wooh, almost whole body got numb coz too cold then quickly got in to the shower room to shower, finally warm up...haha
Then, we went for dinner..haha, we discussed so long to decide where to eat..finally decided.
While waiting for the food, all of us were busy talking to each other..whatever topic appeared..haha then we found out that how come so long already our food not yet ready then one of our friend went in the kitchen to ask then the boss came n we said quick la..we waited for so long already. Then slowly, all the food are ready and finally we can enjoy our food haha..everyone was so hungry but while eating still continue on our conversations haha..seem like non-stop conversations we had..haha..;p
After that, we went for movie..we watched "Painted Skin" as many people said it's nice..it's a chinese movie. After watching it, i felt this movie not so nice and interesting as i thought.. however, at least i dint fall asleep as i was really tired at that time..so that's mean this movie is not so bored + it's acting at the ancient type of scene, about those armies chasing after the demons that killed many people at their town..haha, sound abit bored ler and the story line is just normal as not interesting as well..haha..that's my comment..different people has different taste..haha ;p
Well, i had an enjoyable day because it seem like so long i dint have so much fun and laughter already and i was really tired last nite when i get home and finally i can sleep and rest even more without thinking too much..once i got on my bed..sleep till morning. Thank you my friends and Thanx God for the day and hopefully i can enjoy my life better after this.
Now, i actually feel my whole body very tired and really lazy to move..haha maybe because using too much energy for swimming yesterday..haha...;p