Meaningless....

Cannot describe my feeling lately...
Meaningless? Bored? Tired? Lazy? or what??? Doubt..........
I don't want to get back the bad feeling of thinking a lot that make me emotionally 'breakdown'...
Oh, Please..NO!!!!

I started to feel bored of my work and feel really lazy to teach anymore as this few weeks, a lot of students dint turn up for lessons and i got too long hours of breaks in between that make me feel really tired of waiting..because dont know what can i do....really bad arrangement of schedule.
Today, i got 1 student at 1.20pm-2.20pm then i have a long breaks until 4.20pm..that 2 hours really hard to pass..i watched my drama but dont seem im into it (i brought my laptop to office) and today my boss dint on the internet so, i cant online :(
I finished work at 6pm but of all i only teach 3 students today and on the way home, caught in traffic jam that makes me really sleepy almost close my eyes (actually i did) but thanx God that i can still drive safely home.

I think i really need a long holiday so that i can really refresh my mind and re-adjusting my life.
However, God is always caring of me..I am glad that next week i can go home (limbang) as the main purpose is actually to attend a friend's (consider cousin as well) wedding. Both of them are good friends of me(churchmates)..knowing since we were young and growing up together. Ops, now then i realize i need to practice the wedding songs..i almost forgot my "job"..haha..yeah, i need to play for their wedding ceremony (as pianist)..it's my great pleasure to do so, hopefully i wont mess up..wakakaka..;p
Looking forward to go back this time as i can catch up with lots of friends as well as lots of us actually working or studying at different places...this is a great opportunity that we can actually meet because mostly will be back to attend the wedding.

Well, hopefully after this short "holidays", i will totally fresh up and come back here and have better working life.